tisdag, mars 24, 2015

A spiritual perspective

I’m supposed to study but as soon as I start look for other sources on the web, rather than sticking to the school literature, I find something interesting. More than interesting; now and then I find things that literally grip my soul.
 
I’m not religious anymore but I don’t deny that I have an innate spirituality that I sometimes find embarrassing because I like to think of myself as a logical and rational person. One doesn’t have to exclude the other, of course, but you know what it’s like when you want to believe in something without actually knowing shit…
 
So today I was starting to write about the history of the field called Specialpedagogik and started off with the customary “people have been born different through all times blah blah…” and “society have handled these things differently depending on culture and so on so forth…” and started to make examples. One of which was about Native Americans (a broad generalization of course because all tribes are different even though they also have similarities) who I’ve read somewhere thought that “crazy” people were either obsessed by demons so you’d better be nice to them or bad shit happens, or that they’re special to the gods and thus should be treated kindly- in other words I wanted to say that Native Americans treat people that are different with respect as opposed to some cultures where they were not only hidden away but also sometimes killed in infancy because people didn’t want to waste resources on children that might not make it anyway, be in pain and peril all their life, or would never become “useful”.
 
Then I decided I needed documented sources to claim these things and not just hearsay…
 
That’s when it happens. First I searched on the words “native american attitudes…” and ended up with studies of how “they” do in school and society at large; statistics for the mental health of the group compared to other groups and so on. I found one article describing the “mentality” of the Native American people and I was like “Hey! They’re describing me!”
 
Is there a whole nation of people like me? (Like the Kurds I suppose that natives of many countries could be called a “nation” without a nation) Anyways; I’ve always been attracted to Native Americans and their (old) lifestyle, wishing to be one of them and dreaming of visiting some of their own festivals or even living with them for a time. Perhaps I was a Native American in some of my previous lives? I really want to believe that…
 
After that I found a book (which I had to buy…) about Native American communities and their views on health and disability. Several things they described of the views and attitudes Native Americans have of disabled people made the hairs stand up all over my body and tears come to my eyes. For example; they don’t have negative words for disabilities! Nothing like “cripple” or “idiot” or “crazy”. Being different is not bad. It’s just a way to be. A person with scoliosis for example, may be described as short and in pain, even named after how they look because of it, but at the same time they are not viewed as abnormal or wrong. They’re not hidden away and discarded but respected and saluted as full worthy members of the tribe anyway; your membership is not dependent on your abilities to contribute or how you contribute. You’ll still be fed and loved because you’re a fellow human being. They don’t focus on what you can’t do and fault you for it, instead they let people do what they can and want to. No pressure to be in a certain way or do things a certain way. Different is accepted. I wish our own society could be that way.
 
As I understood the text it also said that many Native American tribes believe that the spirit (our soul) decide which body it want to be born to- with every complication that may follow. In other words we are, as individuals, responsible for who and what we are because our spirit chose the body for us. It’s up to every person to accept the challenge of the body and mind and do whatever task they were born to do with those conditions- decided by their own spirit. The more difficult the complication of the body or mind the stronger the spirit. It seems that Native Americans then believe in reincarnation, just like Buddhists, and that we’re here (in life) to learn. I also like the idea that it’s my own spirit that decided this body for me- not god or anything like that (or perhaps it’s the same thing?).
 
What I like the better is that many Native Americans then see the spirit as healthy and complete no matter your physical or mental status. They don’t look at someone and think: “you’re not complete, you’re not as you should’ve been if you’d been made right”. Because you are made right. Your spirit chose to be this way. All respect to that.
 
(at the same time though, some tribes also believe that you can cause disabilities in a child by, for example, chopping wood from a tree that has been hit by lightening because lightening is a such a strong energy it may have negative effects upon your life…)
 
There was a story of a person born with a condition that made the body stay as small as a child’s, caused blindness and a very limited mental capacity. A medicine man came to visit this person and spoke with them, opening with: “I do not wish to speak to the body or the mind. I wish to speak with the spirit”, and they connected and “spoke” for a while. Afterwards he was asked why he bothered and he said: “The body may not be able to respond, nor the mind comprehend, but the spirit knows and understands everything”.
 
This, to me, concludes everything I feel about people. Especially those I meet and care for in my line of work, but everyone else too, even animals. No matter the diagnosis or difficulties in life; you, and I, are always a whole person, even if I lost some limb or ability- or never had it to begin with. There may not be any “higher” reason for the conditions I struggle with other than it’s a life experience that I need to deal with. It won’t go away because other people may feel awkward to face it or because I hate what they feel about it and what their feelings make me feel about myself; but my feelings about it, and abilities to handle it, may change depending on my perspective. It also makes a difference to people around me how I see them.

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